Mama want to say sorry for "piak piak" you last night when you cry for milk. But Mama's heart ache also cos you cried and ask for milk, but Mama make for you, you refuse to drink. What's wrong? Isit time for solid food already? But you're only going to 5 months old soon. But you scared Mama when Mama "piak piak" you, you cried for a while, but the stopped crying and stared at Mama. What are you thinking baby? Mama still loves you very very much..but Mama is really very tired, frustrated and depressed.
Someone called Mama and offered Mama a job. But Mama already turned them down. Cos its in KL and maybe gotto work late. Mama need to come home early to pick you up from aunty's place and take care of you at night. Starting a new job means Mama gotto start all over again. And since its a senior position, Mama gotto work extra hard. And since its a Marketing job, it means "dunno when is going home time".
Since you don't like Papa as much as Mama, Mama gotto take care of you most of the time. Why baby? Why don't you like Papa? Is it because Papa seldom talk to you when you're in Mama's tummy? Or is it because Mama cried alot and was angry at Papa when you're in Mama's tummy so now you don't really like Papa? Mama hopes you can bond with Papa more. But you like to bully Papa...and Papa don't know how to handle baby yet..so Baby must give Papa a chance to bond with baby. Okay?
Mama's really tired. Mama seldom sleep now cos Baby wakes up so many times at night and many times Papa cannot handle you alone. Luckily Mama already hired part time maid..if not Mama already register to go in Tanjung Rambutan. But still there's so much to do..so much to worry about.
Baby's not gaining weight already. In fact lost a lil weight due to bronchiolitis last time. Luckily you're better now. But now you're not drinking. Is it because you're teething? Or you no longer like the bottle changed for you. If only baby can tell me what's wrong...
Mama don't mind waking up every 2 hours every night...but Mama hopes to see you grow up healthy like Laura che che and Adam Kor kor or cute like Zara , Kieran & Kylie , Oscar, Justin and many more.
Mama think Mama needs a break soon. Or else Mama will go crazy...But how since Mama is so occupied with baby and Papa cannot handle you? *sigh* How baby? How? *sigh*
And Papa, Mama loves you too although Mama always yell at you for making milk too slow, for not waking up although Jayden boy cries like mad and always falling asleep while taking care of Jayden and many more reasons. I know i shouldn't take it out on you two although I'm so tired. Very sorry...
I'm really looking forward to our holiday in September. Can't wait for it...althought Mama still cannot wear back Mama's bikini...Mama will wear a big sarong to cover and still splash water with you two. Mama loves you guys!
Just added after reading King's Wife's blog about shopping.*sigh*
Mama also very unhappy cos Mama cannot go shopping more often. Now Mama gotto carry so many things and also bring 2 big babies around with me. Baby will cry and ask Mama to carry and Papa will whine and ask Mama to hurry up. Now its worst, its Sale time and Mama only get to go 1 day to shop only. Other days gotto take leave to go jalan jalan or massage. Speaking about massage...i really need that.
And Mama still cannot fit into Mama's Levi's jeans. Dunno when only can go back to normal weight...
Despite all the complaints... Mama never regret having you. Having you in Mama's tummy is a wonderful thing and Mama miss the wiggly wiggly feeling you've given me and when you arrived, it's the best thing that ever happened to me. So Jayden boy please be a good boy and let Mama have a good rest or else Mama will go Ku Ku. I love you boy.