Don't kacau a nesting woman

Last night, I turned into a pregnant incredible hulk.

First, Jayden came home and keep whacking me. Whatever he wanted to do and if i say NO, he'll whack/slap my body and he loves to aim at my tummy. So i smacked his hands and asked him don't do that. Guess what he did? He cry la... said "I SAD! I SAD!". *sigh* Can see from his eyes that he has no idea what is wrong and why he is in the bad mood. So, I tahan from being angry, I turned on the laptop and let him enjoyed himself with sesame street games, pressing whatever keys bird bird and elmo asked him to press happily. And then he wanted Thomas videos pulak. And the line was like sh*t, not loading. So he thought , maybe press/whack the keyboard can make it jalan abit. And you know what? each time he whack the keyboard the stupid line really jalan! So whack whack whack my laptop la. Again I said don't do that and he whacked me again. *blood boiling edi* But then cannot blame him right? Cos when he was playing the sesame street games, we asked him to press the keyboard. And then now we ask him don't press? Abit confusing right? So tahan again.. not his fault. Blame it on the stupid streamyx line.

So after dinner, I can sense that my battery is dying. So I lie down. And then I saw my pile of clothes/stuff which I was supposed to bring to hospital. I thought should put in a bag and just grab and go if I wanna go to the hospital. So off to the store room and looked for a bag and my husband said he wanna wash for me first. FINE. Project tergendala.

Then I started to dig and dig into Jayden's drawer and found a few stuff that no2 can use. Then I went and wrote what I need to buy by this weekend. So I was basically here, there, and everywhere.

I told my husband " You know my feelings now? I'm like a bird that is going to lay some eggs, gathering sticks to make a nest" . And he answered me "AIYAH WHY U THINK LIKE THAT?" Guess what happened? *BOOM!* the blood boiling edi. "YOU AH! IT'S CALLED NESTING INSTINCT! ASK YOU TO READ, YOU NEVER READ! EVERYTHING ALSO AIYAH AIYAH AIYAH! LATER SEMUA ALSO SAY DUNNO BLABLABLABLABLABLA!"

You know, men will never understand what women gotto go through during pregnancy. No matter how understanding they can be. UNLESS they read alot or attended some course with the wifey. So at least when they're in the delivery suite they know what to do, like massage the wife's leg or back, chat with the wife and not walk up and down, read newspaper, go toilet like dunno how many times, play games with handfone and sleep. If like that, better don't be in the delivery suite. Make the wife's blood boiling only.

I once thought, if MEN is seahorse (male seahorse give birth to babies-not the female) how many would volunteer to do it? Male seahorse knows the feeling of being fat and the feeling of giving birth, contractions for a long time. See how pity the lil seahorse is pushing to get the fry out?

Anyway......so I stopped nesting and went to bed. Middle of the night, the very usual thing happened. Jayden came and started to wiggle next to me. He just love to roll over  on my face. Sometimes he wil just stop rolling and left his bebird area on my nose. Usually I'll just leave it and he'll just roll over and goes back to sleep. Last night, I brushed him off. And he started crying and whacking me. He even used his head to bang my nose! ARGHHHHH!!!! *blood boiling edi*

You know how frustrating it is to have someone whacking you when you finally get some peaceful sleep and then whacked yr nose with a very HARD HEAD? And the one inside me been doing some olympic somersault for the whole day and there's not much room left for the lil fler to move.

Jayden whacked and whacked me, I just tahan and tahan until... he used his head to bang my tummy! * Kaboom!* Beh tahan edi. I just reached for his ears and twisted it and he started to scream. His father finally came to his rescue although I've been shouting "STOP IT! STOP WHACKING ME!" for a good few minutes. Can see from Big C's facial expression that he was so scared of me. *can imagine myself in green colour , turning into a hulk* Jayden just cannot stop crying and that point in time my mind went blank. Totally no feeling of pitiness, sadness, or what so ever. Maybe I was too tired to think of feel anything already.

I then gathered myself and pulled the lil one near me. Big C refused to let go (so imagine how scarry I was?). I pulled Jayden over and he started to hug me and wanted to WHACK me again *PULL HAIR* When he is going to learn leh? sigh....pity the fler. His ears nearly fall off after my super twisting. So I just hugged him and we all went back to sleep after a good 20 mins or so of shouting and crying in the middle of the night. Neighbours must be wondering what the heck is wrong with this family, shouting like mental ppl in the middle of the night.

This morning, I woke up feeling like a pile of sh*t. Made milk for Jayden and he woke up. I thought to myself "Don't know if he remember what happened last night or not?" And then he said to me "Bite bum bum...." Requesting me to bite his bum bum. "Bite elbow..., Bite Chin.....Bite ChitChit....." Well, he's alright. Requesting me to bite here and there - our usual game. All happy and chirpy like a little bird that just got fed with worms and went off to school happily with his dad. Well, maybe he remember or maybe he doesn't. Maybe I should learn from him, forget about the sadness and think about the happy things that is going to happen *pray , please let it be happy day for me*