La La La La...

La la la la....

Actually I have written few long paragraphs. It's about something SOMEONE has said about me. But I figure, forget it la. No point writting it out. I have better things to deal with than to be angry and sad about that person. Not worth my time right? But what happened has proven my intuition about that person is so right and I've made the right decision to stay away from that person since long time ago. :)

So, it's weekend again! And that's a good reason to be happy and be all cheerie right?

And... I managed to sleep last night!  Not sleep through thenight but then better than the rest of the nights. Must be thankful, right? (probably get jinx after this...hehe) But then woke up with a swollen eye! Too heaty maybe.. Hmmm 

See how happy I am ? So happy that I started camwhoring with my Justin. hehe 

Nolah...not middle finger (although I so wanted to show it to that person). Managed to snap a pic of him smiling (abit). I don't know why, he always frown when he sees my Hand Phone or my camera :S 

I think it's him that make my hair look nicer in this picture. Hehe

Have a good weekend everyone!

La la la la la....

Last Night...

Last Night...

10pm
Me: Dadidi.. I must sleep tonight okay? I never sleep last night. Now I'm so damn sleepy edi...
Big C: Okay Okay You sleep la.
Me: Zzzzzzzzzz

11ish
Me: *woke up* huh? .. i thought justin cry tim..Nehmind sleep back.

12ish
Me: Sleep la.....................why cannot sleep wan

2ish
Me: *falling asleep*
Justin: Uwaaaaaaaaaaa (translation: I want nen nen)
Me: *nurse Justin* Okay now i can go to sleep peacefully.

3ish
Me: Okay....falling asleep now.. Zzzzzzzzzz
(background sound: handphone ringing)
Big C: Your handphone ring ler.. dunno who's number is this. (pass fone to me and it stopped ringing)
Me: Don't bother la.. gila wan. Call ppl in the middle of the night.
Me: (who is it ah ? If call midnight must be damn important. Sms: Who Is This?)
Me: okay fine no reply. Must be wrong number.
Me: Okay falling asleep Zzzzzzzzzz

(background sound : HAND PHONE RINGING)
Me: Helo? Helo?
Mr X: ah huey ah.... Ah huey....
Me: HUH???? Helo?
Mr X: Ah huey..........*drunk sound*
Me: AH HUEY???????????WRONG NUMBER WEI!!!
Mr X: *click*
Big C: Who is that ?
Me: Stupid drunk bugger looking for ah huey in the middle of the night.
Big C: haha

4ish:
Me: Sleep la........ why cannot sleeep? all your fault ah huey!

5ish:
Me: Falling asleep.....
Justin : UWaaaaaaaaaaa (translation: I to play!)
Me: Justin ah... go back to sleep la..mamimi very tired leh..
30mins later, justin went back to sleep.

6ish:
Me: Please ... pleaseeeee please pengsan la...*sigh* ah huey....

7ish:
Me: Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
Justin: Uwaaaaaaaa (translation: I want milk!)
Me: Babe, please feed justin. I BEH TAHAN edi.
Big C : Okay okay.
Me: Zzzzzzzzz
Jayden: Mamimi? Open this?
Me: Uwaaaaaaaaa
Big C: Jayden don't kacau mamimi. Let's go school.
Me: Zzzzzzzz
Justin: Uwaaaaaaaaaa (translation: I want my bath already)
Me: *sigh* (wake up and bath Justin)

A lil pressie for myself..

Dunno why. When you get older, your birthday pressie is lesser and smaller. Or some ppl get bigger and bigger like house (dream la....dream more la)

This year, my birthday started with tears. Yeah ler.. cos I was thinking to myself....wtf. Now jayden baru tidur.. in 1 hour Justin is waking up. Tidur setengah jalan then wake up. Then its like so damn difficult for me to sleep again. To sleep or not to sleep leh? How I wish I got the "ON - OFF " button that can make me sleep or wake up straight away.

Anyway ..my husband bought me a cake. But he very "paiseh" wanna bring it out for dinner with my sisters cos he wrote something on the cake. Of course I cannot tell u what izit la, if not he will kill me ler.. :P So Cake only ah ? Muahahhahah you think la Mr Chan. You check yr credit card statement got this statement from Vincci wan..50 plus. I bought a new pair of heels with your credit card for my bday. I know you busy ma... 

Jayden leh.. he sang bday song for me. Many Many Many Many Many MANYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY times! Good enuff for me. And that night, he didn't fuss like the night before. So maybe he "read" my blog?

Justin leh.. he slept from 1130 until 5 am. Good hor? But then yr fren here very stupid la. I kept thinking he is whining and wanted milk. So I kept waking up. At the end I woke up , pumped my milk and tot of going back to sleep and suddenly Justin woke up and wanted milk. Kasi bottle he doesn't want. Oh yeah.. He rejects bottle. He's a boobie man. But then Bleast no more milk how? Ask Mr Chan to wake up and feed and Justin only drank 1oz. So at the end ,I kena kerja again. But then he slept from 1130 till 5 wor. I'm supposed to be enjoying my sleep but its my brain that kept telling me that I need to wake up. So it's my own fault la right? *slap ownself*

So what did I get for myself? I thought I should get something to lift myself up. But I'm too darn broke to buy anything expensive for myself and I look like shit with my long hair. So, yeah I just walked into the saloon and said " CUT IT" And yeah... snip snip.


Nice or not? This is the best picture I can find la. I never sleep for 4 days edi. Kasi Chance la..

Of course I felt "Lighter" and felt good when I walked out of the saloon ,cos baru washed, blow dry to perfection. I was supposed to get some highlights done to make myself look like some funkier despo housewife but then Justin was crying for milk edi. So what to do? Go home and moo moo la.

But then do you think its okay to highlight hair when you're breastfeeding?

And also I need someone to sponsor me for the highlights..........*wink at Big C* can ar?
(GOD saying: Big C, u better give her what she wants cos she tahan for so many nights no sleep and jaga the kids while you're away for your business trip. Otherwise u in big *toot*)

This Year..

my only wish is for my boys to get well soon.

If I Have another wish, i wish I can rest and have a good sleep. Just one will make me very happy cos Jayden's been up since 2am.He just slept. Imagine, I only got 2 hours to close my eyes and that's it. When he's about to sleep, Justin woke up. The entire family cried and screamed in the middle of the night. Ppl must b thinking we're having an early celebration or its time to be nuts again.

Everyday I'm asking myself what else can i do?
Speak softly, cannot.
Scream cannot.
Whack cannot.
I'm like at the dead end.

Jayden is Forever puling my hand.
Must sit next to him when he watch tv. The hand must be around him.
Sekejap want thomas.
sekejap want word world.
Then ask for apple. When you peel the skin of the apple, he purpose stand ontop of your feet. Step Step Step on my feet.
I hate it.
I really hate it.
I FXXKING HATE IT!!!!! ARGHH!!!
And he refused to listen when I ask him not to do it.
Just by saying No, he's already screaming like I'm about to slaughter him.
He lost so much weight.
When he cries I only see one Big mouth.
I pity him.
I don't know what else I can do.
I shouted at him every single day. I even shouted those things which I'm not supposed to say. But I cannot help it.
When I'm nursing Justin, he wants a piggy back ride. My right shoulder hurts so much. Justin also refused to be carried other way except when I use my right hand. So basically my right hand is cacated now. So sore. So damn sore.
Justin is coughing very badly and there's nuthing I can do except to pat his back. He refused to lie down and let me pat his back when he's up.

Anyway, save my rant for another day. I sibeh tired. My eyes very the tired cos I have been crying since 2 am until now. My throat hurts. My shoulder is sore. My right hand cacated. I just hope that today will pass by very peacefully for me.At least just let me enjoy a little bit.

Dear god, if you are listening, please let me rest abit. Afterall...It's my birthday ma...ok? Thank you very much.

Going Mentalz!

I thought I better separate what I wanna write from Justin's 2nd month post below.Cos what I'm about to write is not a happy post.

We went to another doctor last night cos our doctor wasn't around. Justin coughed very badly till his face turned red. Jayden coughed like his lungs was falling out. I? I felt like I wanna pengsan anytime but cannot. The doctor held Justin abit, looked at the ear abit. Doctor also spoke and played with Jayden abit, gave him some candies and prescribed some medicine. And the damage was RM210! And what was the medicine? Fever, Flu, Cough, Nose drop for BOTH my kids, Some stuff for ulcer. Must be some super medicine huh? And the medicine was exactly the same as the one we took from Yenjai the day before. The nurse asked us to throw it away! Print money on trees izit? Anyway Big C went home and he was grumbling the whole night and he asked me to blog about it. Naah blog edi la.

Both of us are standing at the verge, going to suicide anytime. Jayden is really really testing our patience. I don't know about you guys, I get very very paranoid if he doesn't eat or drink. Some ppl say "it's okay wan...he dun feel like eating ma". But then by the time he recover , still alive or not??? Tinggal tulang la! So, the shouting goes on, the crying goes on, neighbours must be thinking.. the people in this house is like some mental human got escaped from tanjung rambutan. When he cry next to me, i just stare at him. Or sometimes just look atthe wall. I'm trying sobad not to whack him but then many times I cannot tahan. Now when I talk, I sound like I'm shouting. Big C ask me " why you shout at me". Wtf, my voice vol automatic is like shouting edi.

I havent been working for many days. How to work? I don't even get to rest. Last night, I think I pengsaned for a while. I dreamt that I went to holiday ALONE. And I was snapping picture using my dslr. The view was fantastic. I was busy snapping away without thinking about anyone else. So carefree then.....Justin cried for milk. Yeah, dream only. Think about it also make me wanna cry out loud now. I'm SO DAMN TIRED AND DEPRESSED! But then, what for wanna rant and cry? Still gotto go on with my life right?

But then I still wanna rant and cry cos it's my blog what. At least I felt better after I get it all out from me otherwise I go Gila. So sekian terima Kasih. If I'm still alive or sane, I'll come back and blog.

Justin - 2 months

Backdated, updated!

Ah time flies and he's already 2 months!


Pic taken at 1 month 2 weeks and 5 days old. No current picture. Very busy ler...

Weight: I think he is slightly more than 5kgs. Haven't been to the paed for his jab. He's down with cough and flu :( Went to the paed cos he was coughing very badly till he cannot breath and he is 5.7kgs.
Height: Dunno also
Head: No idea 38.5 cm

haha you must be thinking "what kind of update is this if everything also don't know and no idea". Muahaaha you dunno ka? I'm going nuts already! I don't even remember when is the last time I poop!

He drinks direct from McSasha now, so I have no idea how much he drinks. When we gave him bottle (that's when dadi or pohpoh is feeding) normally it's 3oz. And how often does he drink? I have no idea too! Muahahahhahaha



He loves to coo or typical chinese says Angoo. And he farts alot! We call him "Mr-Fart-A-Lot". His sleeping pattern is very different everyday. Sometimes he will take very frequent short naps or sometimes he'll just sleep and sleep and sleep till I get so worried. And yeah, he still wakes up in the midnight for feed. Don't ask me how many times. Let's just put it this way, ok? When he cry I'll walk over like a zombie and flip my shirt. And he will stop drinking once he falls asleep. Sometimes I wake up many many many times and sometimes just two times.

Although I'm very tired, but still seeing him smiling and cooing really melts my heart. Love you Justin!

Is it The Season?

Well, not the season to be jolly happy. Its the Cough, Flu, Fever and Sore throat season!

First it was me. I have not been kissing my boys errr around the lips area. So I opt to kiss the hands, the legs, the tummy, the errr everywhere la!

Then Jayden came and kissed my lips cos that's his way of saying Thank You. And BOOM! He started coughing!

And then he said that he wanted to kiss titi! BOOM! the lil one is coughing and his nose started to blow cute lil bubbles.

And soon everyone is wrapping wanton at home!(I wrap for Justin and Jayden la..I'm the maid ma!)

How about Big C? Errr he's always been unwell since ...since.. I forgot!

Jayden without the sickness is already a very hair pulling experience.Oooooooooo You cannot imagine how we pull our hair man. Now I whisper also its automatic vol-HIGH!!!!

Justin, although he's just lying there being cute (anyway he is 2 months old today) also wants to carry, talk, coo, chuckles.

Me? I have been coughing til my lungs wanna drop out since so long ago. I sapu so many pills a day, Hamik hamik lactating multivits la, neurogain la, fenugreek la, vitamin c la but still I jatuh sakit. Maybe I don't have enough sleep. Yeah, most probably. Budden.... how to sleep well leh? you can sleep when yr kids are sick ka? And SAHMS without maids.. you guys get to sleep ka? I think we really need MC once in a while man. But then when we apply MC, who to approve leh?

Sigh....

Don't let your husband use your phone

So we're having dinner in Esquire Kitchen a few weeks back and I wanted to snap a pic of Justin wearing this cute lil china-man cap.



And I don't know why, its very very hard to get Big C to help us to snap some good pictures. There are always excuses like Want meh?, Aiyah no need la, Jayden kacau la blablabla. But then it's okay for me to snap his picture with his kids. :s That explains why you seldom see my picture in this blog unless someone else takes picture for me.

And the other day I thought that its time to do some housekeeping on my phone, downloaded a few pictures out and when I look at the pictures, I rubbed my eyes a few times. I saw this.



Then I rotate my head 90degree and then looked even closer..
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You no need to rotate your head la. I rotate the picture for you la!
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Naah!
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I asked him to take Justin's picture and he grumbled. But he can go and take a nice and clear shot of Mr Elvis Wannabe. Pengsan or not? *sigh* No wonder when he was playing with my phone he was giggling and eating his dinner. Maybe I should frame this picture and put it on his bedside for him to see since he likes him so much eh?

btw..if you stay in PJ, you will see this guy in the picture very often. Yeap... real hair.

Best Contraceptive

Don't you think so?

I want titi!

That's what he said to us when we're about to leave mum's house last night. I was still in the house with Justin next to my mum and Big C was carrying him. Suddenly he just said " I want titi!" and ran into the house and pulled the baby carrier.


Pic taken long time ago...They're wearing my zebra shirts but its blocked *sigh* and now Justin cannot fit into the shirt anymore.


This video was taken long time ago when Justin was about a month old. Now he hugs and wanna carry Justin. Makes my heart wanna fall out everytime he does that.

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Here's something that he said to me these few days and I wanna share with you guys:

Walk side by side..

Jayden: *stop walking*
Me: why Jayden?
Jayden : *grin* Hi...Perrtttie
Me: What did u say?
Jayden: Hi Perrtie.............*Big Grin*
Me: Hi Pretty? where did u learn that?
Jayden: *laugh* and continued to walk
Me: :D

It's been a long time since someone called me pretty.. haha

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At mum's house last night, Jayden was playing with Jeremy and suddenly he ran to me and said:
Jayden: Hi Honey!
Me: Huh? Honey?
Jayden: Hi Honey!!! bye!
Me: :O

Nope.. no honey in my house. Only darling and baby. I wonder where he learnt  "Honey"
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Rolling on the bed:
Jayden : I...(is for)...Igloo (said it Eye Gloo)
Me: (about to correct him)
Jayden: I SAID... Igloo.. (EEEEE GLOOO)
ME: :#