Did You Say Bye Bye?

Many of us know that our dear blogger friend Lisa Wan passed away few days ago. When I heard the news, I was in shock and also very sad. I kept thinking about her the entire day and couldn't work. So the email came and asked who want to pay her a last visit. I have been thinking the whole day and finally I told Annie Q that we should go.

So yesterday, I prepared Jayden about it.

Me: Later, dadi will take care of you and titi okay? Mami need to go somewhere.
JD: where are you going mami?
Me: My fren, passed away.
JD: *blank face - don't understand what is passed away*
Me: Passed away means.... die edi.
JD: like chacha?
Me: yes yes. Like Cha Cha.
JD: so they dig a hole and put inside? Your fren is going to see Cha Cha?
Me: yes. So mami need to go and say bye bye to her before they put her in the hole.
JD: okay :)

So when I was on my way out, both the kids came running after me , holding to their own shoes (with Justin butt naked).
JD: Mami I want to go say bye bye to your friend too.
Me: Nolah. You need to stay home and help dadi take care of titi okay?
JD: Okay...
Jt: I WANT GO SAY BYE BYE! UWAAAAAAA

I went home quite late and the boys were sleeping. And I still couldn't sleep last night. It's been 2 nights since I had a good sleep. (Boy I so need my sleeping pills tonight). As soon as Jayden woke up he said to me while I was trying to sleep..

JD: *whisper* mami... Good morning....
Me: good morning baby
JD: You come back edi or not?
Me: yes baby.. i am back.
JD: so did you say bye bye to your fren?
Me: yes b, i did. I said bye bye to her edi.
JD: okay. So your fren go and see cha cha edi?
Me: yes, she is with cha cha edi.
JD: yay!

I am glad I went to bid my last farewell. I don't know why. After I saw her for the last time, I felt lighter. It's like I know she is no longer in pain or suffer. But looking at her hub and her 2 kids, makes me so sad. Only time will heal...

Rest in peace Lisa. Don't worry about your kids, I believe your husband is a superb dad. May you look after them while you're in heaven. Will always miss you and your beautiful smile.