Yesterday I blogged about how sweet Jayden was. Today I wanna bang my head to the wall.
Last night, I was unhappy cos I was upset over a customer . I digress cos I don't wanna bitch about my customer. But she is just so ARGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I was unhappy.
I wanted to tell it to someone, face to face. You know, just to express what I am feeling inside and to get some reaction like nodding head and agree and say "yeah she's a bitch, jek!". If I were to speak to a person who looks at other place, won't say a thing, why not i just go and knock the fucking wall right? At least the wall will give me a TUK TUK sound.
So, there was this man which I sometimes call Husband lying on the bed, relaxing as usual. So I wanted to talk and of course someone will say "EXCCCCCCCCCCCUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MAMIiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIIIiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiIIIIIIIIIII"
And of course I said "YEAH WHAT YOU WANT?"
and he replied "I WANT TO SAYYYYYYYY EXXXXXXXXXXXCCCCCCCCCUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE only".
Ok then? Said edi right? ANy other thing? Can I continue?
I got a *nod nod*
So continue bitching and there he goes again EXXXXXXXXXXXCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCCUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
And i said EH STOP IT LA! I want to talk to dadi you know? You have nothing to say then you just let mami finish and then you can EXCUSE ME ALL YOU WANT.
The father just say "it's okay la. He want our attention only" *pat pat on the kids' head*
Mother's blood went to 18 floor edi.
EH! I JUST WANT TO TELL YOU HOW UNHAPPY I AM. YOU SHOULD ASK HIM TO KEEP QUIET AND LET ME VOICE OUT MY UNHAPPINESSS! I KEEP INSIDE UNTIL I WANNA BURST EDI YOU KNOW? BUT NOOOOOOOOOOOOO INSTEAD YOU ASK ME TO KEEP QUIET AND LET HIM HAVE ALLLL THE ATTENTION HE WANTS. WHAT HE WANNA SAY?? EXCUSE ME ONLY??? I AM STUCKED AT HOME, LOOKING AT THEM THE WHOLE DAY. AT NIGHT I CANNOT EVEN VOICE OUT MY UNHAPPINESS FOR JUST 5MINS?
Son say "it's okay mami".
In the mother's heart "what it's okay. It's NOT OKAY. FARKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK".
No. mom just walk out watch tv and feel like shit inside. Still very angry. Still full of fire. But no one to tell to and went to bed.
Mom woke up, feel shitty, feel like a bomb about to explode anytime, but no where to express and no one to talk to.
So what mom do?
Do what? WORK LA, tiu. Like as if you get a break or pat pat on the head.
Unhappy? too bad la.