Scenario one: Neighbour came over
Me: Yeah blablablabla
Jayden: mami Mami!! *stand in front of me and block my view* Excuse me
Me: Yes, what do you want?
Jayden: Mami! Mami! *block view and use hands to cover my mouth*
Neighbour: Jayden, you cannot do this you know.. its very rude. Your mami want to talk.
Jayden: *ignored* mami! Mami! EXCUSE ME!
ME: YES!!! WHAT DO YOU WANT????????? TALK! Don't disturb me and Aunty Dorothy while we're talking okay?
Jayden: *nod nod*
Me: So what DO YOU WANT?
Me: Nothing? Then don't disturb. Blablablabla
Jayden: *exxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxcuseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAMIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII MAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAmmmiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii* (with the wavy tone up and down)
Me: OMG! JAYDEN! WHAT DO YOU WANT???????
Scenario two: I was talking to my husband about something which made me so upset last night
Me: blablablabla! Bla!
Husband: hmmmmm hmmmmm
Jayden: Mami mami mami mami mami mami... Mami mami mami excuse me mami. Excuseeeee me. Mami
Husband: You layan him abit la....
Me: say, what u wanna say.
Jayden: mami mami mami mami mami mami *use hand to cover my mouth*
Me: EH! don't be rude ah!
Jayden: Mami Mami Mami Mami Excuse meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
Me: WHAT DO YOU WANT? TELL!
Jayden: :) *and walk off*
Me: Blablablablablabla *talking on the phone*
Justin: mami... Uwaaaa.. mami. Uwa.... *climb on my body*
Me: *carry justin* blablablablabla
Justin: Mami.............Uwaaaaaaaaaaa.....Mami mami Mami...*use train to play on my mouth* mami mami!
Friend: I think you better go and layan your son.
Me: Okay bye. *click* what do you want Justin?
Justin: *kept quiet*
and this happen all the time.
Big one like that. Small one also like that. *sigh* and some ppl won't understand. How i wish I can scream "WHAT THE FARK do you want???!!!!!!!!!" But I cannot. I can just act like zombie and keep quiet.
I have already given up my job. Stay at home, cook, play, bath, sleep with them. Its still NOT enough. They don't even allow me to talk, to talk about my problems or anything at all. I cannot give up talking and entertain them all the time cos if I do that, then what about the future. I can't even talk to anyone. Better ask me to dig a hole and go bury myself.
what to do? how to fix it? Just ignore and let them get used to it. Then they cry.........cry............. for no reason.
Wanna carry all the time.
NO........Not going to happen to me. Today I carry, tomorrow he wanna carry again. Then again again again then i ORSI (shit) also cannot orsi in peace.
So yeah. I'm not a good mom. I let my kids cry.
So there. Since i cannot TALK, then i write.