At this point in time.. I am a bit down. I have lost my direction of what I wanted to do.
And sometimes I don't know what I am doing or what I am good at anymore.
Then as you're moving along very fine, suddenly some ppl would pop up and give you sarcastic remarks like
"How much do you make? Enough or not?"
"Fuiyoh RICH LOR!!!!" (seriously???!! haha)
"Who's going to buy your stuff?" or "Got people buy or not?"
"For what susah susah sew and then sell? Why not just buy and sell?"
When they say it to me I'll think and say to myself "keep it coming babeh, the knife is already in my body. Just push in even deeper will ya?."
And so I have been thinking, for the past 2 weeks? ( or is it one week? I lost track)
What am I doing?
I am not spending much time with my kids.
I am not earning much. (YES SERIOUSLY!)
I am sewing so much that my shoulder and neck is so stiff.
But I am still doing it.
Still sewing but not very actively.
I am taking things more slowly now.
Enjoying life with my 2 kids.
I dragged my sewing machine and placed it right in front of my tv, I sew and watched tv a the same time while my kids run around me. Sometimes they would come for a fast peck on the lips or cheeks.
So everyday I just tell myself.. "Live everyday like its the first day I thought of the name "Sewing Monster". And as long as there is someone who buys and believe in my product, I will continue to sew.
My Ozzie Order ready to be shipped out. Thank you (you know who you are!) for believing in Sewing Monster!
And hopefully I will plant it deep into my brain and continue to pursue my dream.