
Yeap..he is. In fact every kid is.
There, his first time pooping in potty. And also his first time not pooping for 2 days. *phew*
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UPDATED:
no...no.. not potty training him. I put him on potty cos he didn't poop for 2 days. So I thought I could give him a hand/shhh-ing to make him poop and he did.
I just want to find myself, be myself again.
I want to be the same old me, gila gila me.
Gila gila I am. Sometimes I say ..Tahan....he's just 31 months old or Tahan... he's just about 6 weeks old baby only. And sometimes I just snap and that's it.
The 31 months kiddo get whacking for being difficult. When he scream and cry, the mother screamed and cry even louder than him. That made him so shocked and screamed even louder. The neighbour I guess is immune to the screaming and crying. The boy, sometimes get nightmare and started kicking and crying at night. The mother then cry at night thinking how horrible she had been treated her son.
The 6 weeks old kiddo no longer sleep that much. He's always awake at the wrong timing. The time when the mother is really busy. Now he can be awake for many hours straight down. And when he's awake, he need someone to be by his side, talking to him and cuddle him. The mother's shoulder is really tired. Her brain is really tired. Her eyes is even more tired. And sometimes she just stare blankly at the wall, got no idea what to think. The kiddo only prefers left breast and scream when the milk is too strong. Sometimes because of that, he rejected the breast and cry cry cry. Even when you give him bottle, he'll just cry. And then the mother cry with him, asking him what he wants. Just today, he took 1 and half hour to finish 3oz milk.
Husband came home, sometime he see the wife with happy face. Sometimes she is so stoned and he'll ask what happened. Then he gotto go into the room and ask his No.1 what happened and why mami whacked him. Being unwell himself, he gotto work, then come home with angry wife, sad kid and another crying baby. He even offered himself to take care of the night shift and went to work like a zombie.
I started to work, thinking that my boss will deliver his promises to keep my job function less. That's why I agreed to continue to freelance for him. But I got thrown with so many projects, some he said that he'll get another person to deal with. The person never finished her job and at the end I gotto clean it up for her. I rejected a few projects (which will be my future project :( ) and tried to work. Like what I feared last time when I first wanted to resign, he called me out of a sudden and threw me an URGENT project and need to be submitted the same day. At the same time he expect me to finish the other projects. At the end I gotto sit in front of the pc whole day - that's not supposed to happen. So now gotto learn to say NO, LATER and GIVE ME SOME TIME to my boss.
So many things going on. So little time. So little hand. No maid (coming in 2 months time)
I need miracle to happen.
Miracle to make No.1 less irritating, cranky and fussing(request to change channel like every 2 seconds, keep taking out cds after few minutes played, keep pressing DVD player ON, OFF, ON, OFF or OPEN, CLOSE, OPEN, CLOSE, keep opening fridge and digging for food, taking out pots and pans from the kitchen, throwing his fav train on the floor when we say NO).
Miracle to make No.2 Sleep better, Feed better and faster, and give his mother some time for herself.
Miracle to make me stay calm, sane and happy again. Miracle to make me , me again.
Ooh.... I gotto jot this down before my memory go haywire again. I know, normally I'll post funny things about what Jayden did and seldom praise him (Bad mother- I know!). So, many of you guys know that Jayden is still slacking in terms of speech and my neck is getting longer just waiting for him to have a conversation with me. He speaks very limited short sentences for example " I want "something". And sometimes he even say "I want MMai (Don't want in hokkien -don't know who taught him)" *slap forehead*. But this one, I gotto say he really stunned us including my confinement lady.
(dream a bit only cannot meh?)
He tried to hide the fact that he is jealous. One time, his dadidi was playing with Justin on the bed, he tried to get in between the 2 of them. It was very obvious that he was jealous but then he tried to cover up by playing peek-a-boo with Justin. How smart right? But then he only gets jealous when dadi is playing with Justin. Other than that, he's okay and he adores his lil brother very much.
The Dadidi
Dadidi is very helpful (keep it up babe!). First day, he bought lunch for me and even warm up a Brands chicken essence for me and help me to take care of Justin while I go and take a bath. He's now officially 100% in charge of Jayden. Including getting him ready for sch, getting him changed and sending him to sch. At night, he'll bath Jayden, make milk for him and blablabla. One day he even prepared Jayden's uniform the night before, that really surprised me.
The Mamimi
CL left early so I'm all alone with Justin during the day. Jayden goes to sch and daycare and comes back at around 4.30pm. My dad is helping me to bring him back from school and Dadidi send Jayden to sch every morning. So far I have not cook dinner, we eat out and the food without GINGER taste so so nice :P. But I still jaga my pantang on certain food.
I'll be starting work on this 10th. Yeap, only 1 month maternity. Yeah I know, my company sucks. Anyway I'm officially working freelance from my home for the same company just that I'm no longer an "officially" their staff in the payroll. So with lower pay and after paying some bills (the CL and also the maid) I'm very broke now. So that explains the paid post in this blog and if anyone need parlia designer to do simple design can contact me okay ? *big smile*
I wish I can sleep anytime of the day but I just cannot sleep during the daytime. And definitely no sleep for me at night because Justin likes to drink from only one side of the breast and then ZZZzzz.So he drink less and more frequent. So I gotto wake up very frequent in the middle of the night to nurse him.
Emotionally, I'm better compared to when I first came back. It was bad earlier until I had to go and get some post natal depression pills from my doctor. That explains why I seldom blog hop or update my blog. I even asked some of you guys that wanted to come and visit me - not to come over cos I just wanted to be alone. (sorry!). Now that CL is not around to help - I guess I need to take a break from blog hopping.
Physically, I lost 10 kgs (including Justin). Another 8 or 9 more to go in order to go back into my Levis Jeans. I miss my old clothes!
First of all, thanks everyone for your wishes and your lovely gifts and generous angpows.
We celebrated Justin's full moon last yesterday, 4 days earlier. The day started with flower bath for all of us including confinement lady. And then prayers at our own house then we headed over to BIL's house in Kepong and then to my mum's in PJ. Confinement lady left early so yesterday it's our first day without her to handle lil Justin.