Monday, August 03, 2009

it's just one of those days

Everything that used to be to normal for you seems to be so hard.

And everything became WHY? Why? Why? Why? when he is already doing it every single damn day.Why am I the only that seems to be struggling.

Its one of those days that you just wanna dig a grave and bury yourself or just hide yourself in a cave where no one can find you. No one ask you a question. No one expect a damn answer. No. Nothing. Just want to have a total silent day.

And you have to control the tears flowing and you gotto balance your head properly so the tears won't fall out. And it just stays in your eyes until it became too damn heavy and finally it falls out while you're driving.

It doesn't matter that your son finally knew that he really screwed up and he kept saying "Sorry mami. I say sorry mami. Sorry mami". And you just can't turn your head and say "it's okay babe".Cos it's not only him that is making your life so shitty today. It's as though everything that seems to be perfect suddenly became so shitty. And everything seems to be so unimportant anymore. Nothing matters anymore and you just wanna give up everything that you try so hard to practise and save.

20 comments:

  1. I wish tomorrow you'll wake up in a different tone, rainbows and all things pretty and nice coming your way :)

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  2. ming tin yat tiu hou hon... you have a good day tomorrow ONWARDS.. things will just fall back into perfect.. and your boy, still give you those happy moments.. :D

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  3. its shitty that when we are at our shittiest, even our wonderful children cant really help pull us out of all that shit. seriously, no offense intended. i'm just saying that there are days that i feel as shitty as how u've just described, and there's been quite a bit of those days lately.

    sleep well tonight, sasha. may tomorrow be better for u.

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  4. Tomorrow will be a new day! Take it easy ok.

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  5. eh..i got one suggestion. i'll let u know when i see u online. and when i got time to sit down n chat la. ;)

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  6. 2molo will be a better day ..:P

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  7. Once a while as a mother, we need a break too!! Relax and take a deep breath!!! Sometimes I also wish that no one will disturb me and stop asking me silly questions, because I dont want to answer the same questions a hundred times!!

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  8. Awww... Hug hug. Like you said, its just one of those days. We all have them. You'll have better days again. Take care.

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  9. take it easy ... it will be a brighter day tomolo...

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  10. take it easy ... it will be a brighter day tomolo...

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  11. etceteramommy5:02 PM

    Lei Yau Mo Si Ar? Mo Lum Kum Tor. Meng Tin Wui Kang Ho... *hugs*

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  12. Anonymous5:31 PM

    SAHM is a full time job, 24/7/365. If you ask me, when you have a job, when u feel frustrated, you can still take MC or AL. Ask yourself, whether u still work or enjoy every moment being with your children, looking at the growing up, ensuring that they have the best and not abused. SAHM is a very big sacrifice but I don't mind doing it myself. Maybe you feel lonely at times.
    It will be great if your other half comes home and just sit down,look at you and tell you are a great wife mother. And still look attractive without make up and hair in a mess. :) What say you?

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  13. You know
    Sometimes I am scared that I took too much of your time

    chatting / talking nonsense with you

    Should have let you concentrate on your work

    But after reading this, maybe I did the right thing
    Cheering you up a bit
    (though sometimes I may have said stupid thing. but what the heck :P )

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  14. I have many of those days, they seem endless... esp during these few days, when i thought everything is peaceful and then suddenly a bombshell came and shattered part of our lives into pieces..
    sounds serious, right? well, it is just one of those days, as i said..
    meanwhile, take them as they come.. shield, shield, shield!

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  15. Whatever the matter is, I'm glad most of us have an outlet to release our frustration - our blogs. I hope things will get better for you and there'll be sunshine coming your way soon. Take care ya.

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  16. let's hope tomorrow will be a better day....a get new lows every now and then.

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  17. jacss5:16 PM

    am giving u a few pats on the shoulder, u have done well so far...see, justin so cute now!!don't let the occassional downs put u off! hope u r feeling better by now...

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  18. hope you are feeling better today...

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  19. u, me, same-same. wanna go stick head into microwave, wanna jump over the bridge, wanna go inside batu belah batu bertangkup

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